November 13, 2020
Continued from Good Morning Ritual
Something to think about.
đź’“ Nina
November 12, 2020
Continued from Happy Memories Of You Do I Keep
Fire’s reflection. A smiling moon up above. A quiet time now…
đź’“
November 9, 2020
Continued from A Rustic Split Rail Fence
“Let go the past…”
And anyway,
What does it matter she didn’t like your picture?
Those were happy memories to you.
Keep them.
Remembering:
The smile of innocence may fade—as does the rose—however,
The lingering memories are still just as sweet
To the heart…and
The heart remembers (with great joy!) the happy smile of the child and
Delights in retelling the old story!
Today begins a new chapter.
What new story will you tell your heart today?
What new happy memories will you make for your heart to one day remind you of
This day–
Standing at the kitchen sink
Sun shining on the window sill
Cleaning carrots for dinner–
Smiling…
With love from the cottage in the woods,
NZain đź’“
Thank you for reading and sharing this moment together.
November 8, 2020
Continued from Solitude
What images you evoke in me…
…in silence and solitude.
With love from the cottage in the woods,
Nina🙂
November 7, 2020
Continued from Three Sisters Horai
With love from the cottage in the woods
In solitude,
Nina 🙂
November 5, 2020
Continued from Alone In A Crowd.
Diodorus Siculus, Library of History 5. 72. 5 (trans. Oldfather) (Greek historian C1st B.C.) :
“The Horai (Horae), as they are called, to each of them, according as her name indicates, was given [assigned by Zeus and Hera] the ordering and adornment of life, so as to serve to the greatest advantage of mankind; for there is nothing which is better to build a life of felicity than obedience to law (eunomia) and justice (dike) and peace.
Three sisters Horai
Invited I
For tea…and cookies.
Desired I
Wise council of Thee; and
How to “build a life of felicity”...to be continued.
My Dear First Lady,
I am writing to you personally to offer my thanks and gratitude for you, your husband and the whole Trump administration. What you have done for this Great Nation by exposing the real enemy within—will always be remembered by those who see through the lies all the way to the truth–and still trust in the best days ahead.
Regardless of the outcome of this contestable election, I will continue to work for all that is good in the world.
I pray good laws, (Eunomia) justice (Dike) and peace (Eirene) will lead us forward through the darkest days ahead, and we may soon begin rebuilding our best and brightest life yet.
Yours truly,
Nina Zain
Source:
October 27, 2020
Continued from Unpacking My Self
Layer upon layer unpacking body, mind and soul.
What lies hidden?
What truth remains–
To be seen?
And heard…
Alone in a crowd
All seemed
“Perfectly normal” except
To the one who
(Hiding behind false pretenses)
Locked behind the weight of her own hollow eyes—she felt
The weight—what could she do?
Perfectly normal
Insisted she remain quiet for the sake of those
Around her
Who
Would rather not know
The awful truth. And
Anyway,
What could they do? (Better not burden those already
burdened with troubles of their own.)
Unnoticed by most, she waited
Until the day her wings
(Ready or not)
Would carry her to a place where
She, alone, could finally
Exhale.
A place where lies are separated and discarded—truth
Neatly folded and placed on the top shelf; a place called Home.
And now reflecting back on the years
With grace-filled eyes,
Accepting the losses of shattered dreams,
Picking up broken pieces, discarding them too–I am
Clearing space for new ideas to emerge; my wings neatly
Folded and placed on the top shelf—I am home.
Home.
A place inside of quiet refuge and rejuvenation
Surrounded by things that matter most.
Things soothing to the senses and
Necessary for nourishment of
Body, mind and soul.
A place where routine becomes ritual and
Each day is a blessing from God…where angels are invited to play
And seek shelter in the storm.
Home
Is
A
Place. Tangible. Real.
Built on a solid foundation to last a lifetime.
Life takes time to build and time is precious: everyone knows this.
Do they? Then why in the world would they want to destroy—?
There is no answer.
No reasonable answer.
Self-abuse is still abusive.
I am concerned with angels. I cannot change the world.
I can clean my own home and make this place a place of beauty and order.
A place where even gods find refuge.
I have work to do…
–NZainđź’“
Thank you for reading.
October 24, 2020
Even now, as an adult, every day I still wake up,
Nervous system conditioned—ready for the crisis. Or
Even worse—the calm.
“Yay! Mommy is all better today!” Was
Not
The
Safe
Response for this emotionally abused child.
I hope you don’t understand. And yet–
I know some of you do understand.
You’ve been there…
Years of conditioning
Training the child
To be on guard
At
All
Times–
Wears the nervous system down.
And so here I am.
You see, if another makes the same mistake—it is easily forgiven. However,
I was trained in a peculiar sort of way and slowly, over time,
My system let me know:
I could no longer add unnecessary stress to my system by pretending to be happy.
If I could not find a way to retrain my nervous system—my system would fail.
So here I am
Unpacking my self
To the very core…
–NZainđź’“
Thank you for reading.