March 5, 2023
With the eyes of my heart broken
Wide open
I see
A vision of what is possible–
Heaven on earth as it is in
Heaven.
The heart follows where
Love leads.
NZain
Author: NZain
@ukiezhinka
I Am Not The Source…âš
February 26, 2023
I am not the source. The Source is within me. If you look to me, I will only reflect back what is already inside of you.
Turn within, towards your heart and sense the same Spirit given to us all by Christ Immanuel (my Beloved brother) Jesus who knew the pain of a heart broken by betrayal and also the enduring love of forgiveness who said, “Forgive one another…”
There is one who would, in your grief and a hopelessness, offer you a cloak of shadows to cover your pain and hide your broken heart from God. This is a lie. For we are told God is near the broken hearted…
…within our hearts calling to us, “My beloved son! My beloved daughter! Here am I always with you! Never will I leave you.”
Who can hide from God?
Take off the cloak, give it back to the devil and say, “Here is your shadow-self returned to you and for a little while rest quietly in the darkness until even you are returned to the Source of Light that is All loving and All forgiving.”
We are all a part of the story of mankind and of human kindness; held forever in the mysterious hands that create, sustain and destroy in order to create again and again…and again.
Sense your own mysterious hands touching the broken heart of another. Sense the sharp edges that cut deep through the layers upon layers of pain. Hold this pain tenderly, softly just as you yourself are being held. Stay with the pain…sense The God who has the power to heal within you loving wholeheartedly!
All loving and All forgiving.
I am not the source. The Source is within me. Always near calling my name, “Turn within towards Me that I may shine My Light on your face and you may reflect My Love and forgiveness onto the broken-hearted that they may also re-turn towards Me!”
Past the shadows
Through the pain
Into the place where
Love calls us each by name–
“Here I am waiting for you to receive All that I have to give you! My Child, open your hands…”
Enter in.
–NZain
In the Center of the Center…đ
February 19, 2023
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, a broken and contrite heart–these O God you will not despise. Psalm 51:17
In the center of the center
In the center of your heart
Is a place so secret where
Love is revealed.
In this meeting place where
Matter joins with Spirit
In the center of the center
In the center of my heart
I know that I know
The face of God is revealed
Everywhere and to everyone who seeks deep
Within the center of their center in the center of their hearts.
Says the Lord:
I will put my law in their center and write it over their hearts; and I will be their God and they will be my people. Jeremiah 31:33
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In Between Your Words…
January 29, 2023
In between your words and
The meaning left behind them–
I took a trip around the world landing in
Exactly the same spot!
Who said,
“You’re broken!”
And as for being “unredeemable”
I am here to tell you,
“You’re loved.”
Beyond measure. Perhaps beyond reason. But
That’s the beauty of love! Love doesn’t need a reason.
Maybe that’s why we’re so afraid of love…we can’t control what
Love does or doesn’t
Do. We’re powerless over love…and so
We grieve when we think love is lost. But
How can love ever be lost when love
Is right here right now always transforming moment by
Moment in the space between your words and their meaning;
We are never separated from LOVE! Ever.
And yet…in this pain so deep and unspeakably real; there is a
Profound truth and beauty in grief.
When I say the words, “I love you” I mean that
I hold your pain close to my heart as a tiny creature to be cared for.
Do you get the picture?
I also long to hear the same words “I love you” from someone who
Means what he says…but maybe that’s just too much to ask of another.
I asked God to hold my pain. And
This is how I say to you will full confidence,
“You are loved.”
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In This Garden of My Heart…đ
January 22, 2023
Galatians 5:22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, faithfulness, kindness, goodness…
In this garden of my heart
You are here, shovel on hand.
Together, we have much work to do.
Digging deep, pulling out weeds of past
Memories, composting the hurt–pain
Becoming fertilizer for the seeds of
Spirit to grow up out of
These ashes which is
All that remains of what used to be–You
Died for me…so I could live
Here in this garden with You and
For all eternity
Tend to your trees.
“Grief accomplishes a healing work”*
And seeds hold the hope and expectation of fruit.
My joy is in the ripening.
NinađŠ
* Donna Winship
âYou are My Beloved…â
November 27, 2022
She was given a precious gift, which she would not receive. In her closed fist, she could not hold the warmth of its love. She struggled (in vain) against the weight of its truth…
Until one day–
She dropped (all pretenses) down to her skinned knees and let go (in a flood of tears) a heavy burden she had carried for so long.
And in exchange–
She received (finally and without much effort) the precious gift she had always longed for.
True Love so strong lifted her up (gracefully and effortlessly) to a place higher than her own fears.
A quiet place of perfect peace where The Source of All Love flows from an infinite spring (unsullied and unhurried…)
And in the stillness of her mind,
she heard clearly the sweet voice of God
(arising from the wounds of her heart)
whispering,
“You are My Beloved…”
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Seems I am not yet able to respond to your lovely comments. Technical glitch. Do know however, I am always so grateful to read each and every kind word expressed and shared here by each and every one of You!
Please keep sharing! What do you hear the voice of God say to you?
With so much love and gratitude,
Nina đ€
If Only…One Day.
November 12, 2022
While speaking to a friend about loved ones who have passed, I asked him:
“What question would you ask God?” My friend wanted to know why God took the best of us–the ones he loved most.
Why is a mystery.
Sadness stings the heart
Memories when we were young
If only…one day.
Dear Lord,
My friend has a question for You.
He wants to know why
Is the sky blue?
The depths of Your love revealed
In butterfly wings
Your mystery concealed.
What would You have him know about the best of us who must ALL follow our own paths back to YouâŠin ways and times that seem as unlikely as a caterpillar flying?
Lord, I confess the longing in my heart if onlyâŠone day to be with my friends and family again whom I missâin my struggle here separated on earthâwhile they are at rest united with You in a place I hear is called Heaven.
And how would You have me live today to be of comfort and joy for a world so desperately in need of what was lostâŠand stolen from us?
In silence I listen, for the voice of God speaks softly to me ever present like the windâŠ
Like the wind, the Spirit blows where it will (see John 3:8).
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Please share your thoughts. As always, I appreciate you!
NZain. âš
Y Por Eso Rezo…And For This I Pray đđ»
October 8, 2022
Sometimes, I find expressing my heart in Spanish to be a little softer. English translation follows.
He asked Her:
âÂżpor que tenes miedo?â
en mi corazĂłn hay pasiĂłn y dolor
amor y miedo
alegrĂa y tristeza…
asĂ es la vida
mi corazĂłn es poderosa
intensa sensual
amable… independiente
en mi matrimonio sufrĂ abuso intimo… Ă©l no podrĂa amar todo de mĂ…no respetĂł mi cuerpo
y las palabras no coincidĂan con sus acciones
“Las personas dañadas lastiman a las personas”
ahora
hablo las palabras…y siento
la picadura
como un escorpion…en mi corazĂłn…
porque recuerdo cuando el amor era dulce.
mis ojos estan llagria… el que no puede amarse a si mismo no puede amar a otro…
Ă©l no era un mal hombre … simplemente fuera de contacto consigo mismo
pero
mi corazĂłn estĂĄ sanando…suave y lentamente
…quiero todo de amor.
ÂĄQuiero sonreĂr para volver
a reĂr… y cantar!
mi corazĂłn quiere bailar…
mi cuerpo quiere moverse
con un hombre
pero solo cuando hay confianza… respeto y amor…amistad.
las emociones de una mujer son difĂciles de entender…habrĂĄ dificultades.
el corazĂłn debe expresarse la…tensiĂłn es inevitable… pero podemos besarnos y reconciliarnos?
no quiero arrepentimientos
porque tĂș, querido, me inspirasâ
mis instintos me preguntan:
ÂżPuedo confiar en que un hombre se mantendrĂĄ firme y enfrentarĂĄ su propio miedo?
sĂłlo el y Dios sabe la respuesta
y por eso rezo.
â©He asked Her:â©â©âwhy are you afraid?ââ©â©in my heart there is passion and painâ©love and fearâ©happiness and sadness...â©this is lifeâ©â©my heart is powerfulâ©intensely sensualâ©friendly...independent
â©in my marriage I suffered intimate abuse...he couldn't love everything about me...â©he didn't respect my bodyâ©and his words did not matchâ©his actionsâ©â©"Hurt people hurt people"â©â©nowâ©â©I speak the words...and I feelâ©The stingâ©like a scorpion...in my heart...â©because I remember when love was sweet.â©my eyes are tearful... he who cannot love himself cannot love another...â©he wasn't a bad man...just out of touch with himselfâ©â©butâ©â©my heart is healing...gently and slowlyâ©...I want all of love.â©â©I want to smile againâ©to laugh... and sing!â©my heart wants to dance...â©my body wants to moveâ©with a manâ©only when there is trust... respect and love... friendship.â©â©a woman's emotions are difficult to understand...there will be difficulties.â©the heart must express itself... tension is inevitable... but can we kiss and reconcile?â©I don't want regretsâ©because you, dear, inspire meââ©â©my instincts ask me:â©â©Can I trust a man to stand his ground and face his own fear?â©â©only he and God knows the answerâ©and for this I pray.â©--
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Intimo spirito moto sapio sensualis…naturalisâš
October 2, 2022
He asked me,
âWhat do you want?â
Intimo spirito moto sapio sensualis…naturalis
The rawness of being softly nested
within the confidence of true friendship.
An intimate friend who is free to love and experience lifeâs joys…and sorrows.
Feelings aside,
are we compatible? Can we
allow each other the space
to have a tough day–
and be with
the inevitable lows that
come from being human?
Without the need to fix, change or control; can we
still be present within
ourselves
in each otherâs company without
disconnecting and checking out
even if we are in time out?
Does this make sense?
Can we stand on our own solid ground and yet still stand by each otherâs side? And can we together build a strong foundation that will stand the tests of time.
Without so much emphasis on the âusâ
can we just be âyouâ and âmeâ and patiently
allow the âusâ to grow up together naturally,
overtime without so many expectations or
forcing a certain shape?
What does the container of ârelationshipâ look like to you?
A woman who stands on her own
isnât so easily swept off her feet
in a torrent of feelings. She doesnât
rush in over her head
falling in loveâonly to be
knocked down and washed up
on disappointmentâs shore.
She is steady
within herself knowingâ
the constant ebb and flow of
life is a rhythm she dances…and she, determined
waits patiently for loveâs unfolding is so worth waiting patiently for.
She senses the movements of heaven and earth feeling within her own body the expansion of galaxies exploding stardust into all she touches…softly…tenderly caressing the last rays of sunlight on your cheek before quietly pulling you into her warm embrace… gently kissing the moon.
©ïžNZain.
Inspired by real conversations, with love and gratitude. âš
Remembering How on That Day the World Changed Once Again…For Ever. đđ»
September 11, 2022
Remembering how on that day the world changed once again…for ever.
Do you remember âthat dayâ? How has your life changed? And how are you adapting to change? Here, I knowâI am traveling in good company. There is no reason to hide from changes already made.
Everywhere I look, beauty surrounds me, even behind me. And presently, I am looking forward (and both ways) before crossing this road into my future. Who knows what changes I will discover along the way…for ever.
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