Stuck in a Honey Pit

December 30, 2021

I got caught

In a pit.

A bottomless abyss;




Oh she seemed so sweet!

That first taste; sticky

Mixed with deceit.





And people told me,

“You should be



Well, instead I got angry.

And let me tell you, a little bit of anger goes a

Loooong way! A fire that burns away impurities and reveals gold.

Because sometimes,

Anger in just the right dose

Can cure the toxic affects of sweet deceit. And so,

After I pulled myself up and out–

I looked down…

In sympathy.

Because, the truth is:

There are so many like me struggling to get free…

Looking forward to a new adventure into the unknown, unpredictable and entirely absurd wondrous world we call home. Wishing us all a healthy new year!

With peace and cheer,

©️2021 Nina 💚

Loving the Unlovable.

November 21, 2021

There is in me a piece

Unloved. For this piece is

Unlovable. Unruly.

Even I don’t like this piece.

And yet, there is in me this piece.

(Unlovable and unloved. Unruly.)

A piece of my whole being wants to

Take something for fear of not having it and

Doesn’t understand how

By acting this way

Something is lost.

Something is always lost and then,

Must be be recovered.

Again and again–

Until this piece learns to be a lover; learns

To be a integral part of the whole.

Learns to play by rules meant not to punish, but to provide.

Learns to be lovable and loved…and so much more than just a piece.

Already this piece is listening and recognizes the pain caused to the whole of my being and that’s enough for now. It is enough now, just to sit with and embrace this piece, lonely and frightened, with the whole of my being, in love, allowing this piece to feel love move through the whole of me…kissing away tears and smoothing back judgements. It is enough for now.

With love and gratitude,

NZain 💚


Studying for an Anatomy Exam

November 13, 2021

Good Saturday to you! Today I am studying for an Anatomy exam, concentrating on the muscles of the shoulder girdle and scapular stabilization. It’s complex! Our bodies are wonderfully designed, and still, the potential for injuries–think “rotator cuff tear” are all too common.

Something to think about.

Strength, stability…

…how many different muscles, tendons, ligaments, joints all working together…

…to move our bodies.

Extension, flexion, rotation, adduction, abduction, retraction, protraction, elevation, depression, sitting in stillness…

…I didn’t know someone was watching me. 😊

Wishing you all a very pleasant day! Thank you for the kind comments and words of encouragement. I appreciate each and every one of you for spending a few moments of your time with me.

With love and gratitude,

Nina ✨💚✨

This is Love…To Receive and Give.

November 11, 2021

In massage therapy school I am learning something about myself.

My teacher recently asked me, “What is it that keeps you from being fully present and committed to life? Ask yourself why you are holding back?”

When will the rug get pulled out from underneath me? Simple as that.

Admitting I was lied to in my marriage…I will push away compliments now because I simply don’t trust them. What is it you are trying to take from me?

Simple as that.

But, if I give it first—you can’t take it. And if you don’t want it—I don’t have to make it personal. I just move on to someone else. Right? Easy. And so I still remain in control… but in this way I am still the one taking.

So now, for the first time in my life (sounds so dramatic) I have the opportunity to focus completely on myself. Give just to me. Make peace with who I am and where I have been.

And ask myself, “what is it I have to offer?”

There is a difference between taking and receiving. Taking is easy. There is no commitment…as long as the other is willing to be taken.

Taken advantage of.

It’s one sided. It’s control and power. But, when the source dries up; when there is no more to take— just simply move on. Blame the other, “you don’t give me what I need. You don’t make me happy anymore.” And the other is left wondering, “What could I have done differently?”

Nothing. But realize something: love doesn’t take; love receives.

And, in the receiving of the gift of love—love is given in return.

Simple as that.

And while it may seem contradictory because we have been so conditioned to believe “it is better to give than receive” to accept the compliment, to receive the gift—an exchange is completed.

Receiving is giving.

The one says, “I have nothing to give.” Then just receive. Just be receptive.

“But it’s difficult to receive.” Yes. It is.

And we have been hurt by those to whom we gave our love. By those who could not receive.

Thank you for this suffering. Without knowing pain I could not now know relief or the peace that follows. I could not receive this healing. I could not give.

Every morning we wake up to this gift of life—one more day is given to us. Start here. Start first thing in the morning. Just this. Receive this gift of life. Of breath. That’s all. Be thankful.

Our thanks is giving.

Just say a simple thank-you. Out loud. “Thank-you for this day.”

Thank you for this breath I receive from the air. Thank you for this warmth I receive from the sun. Thank you for this nourishment I receive from the water…and the soil. Thank you for this body I receive from my parents. Thank you for dying for me.

Thank you. I will rejoice and be glad.

Thank you for this suffering that teaches me to move quietly and gracefully through the day…fully aware of this pain…I offer to my own self compassion and loving kindness. I give to my own self understanding that this frustration I feel in this moment is only temporary and bound to change with time.

Time ephemeral; always fleeting.

Always moment to moment in motion in time—perfecting timing. Receiving and giving all that is life and death together always in a loving embrace.

All is right in life and death…joy follows suffering if we receive—with an open heart—both. There is nothing to take. We are given all of life to receive and we will give all our lives in return.

This is love.

Always fleeting sure-footed time. Never looking back except perhaps to appreciate all that ever was and is becoming now in this very moment again and again…and again.

In this moment I receive All of Life moving within and through my body..and into yours. This is love, and all we have, to receive and give.

You and me.

With love and appreciation, joy and sorrow.