Shattered Chapter 1: Acceptance

March 3, 2020

A new day yet dawns. Rancho Mirage, Ca

Something happened a long time ago.

You’re not sure exactly what happened; however,

You remember it well. Like it happened just this morning.

And now, while you stand there at the sink washing dinner dishes,

Tears streaming down your face, “Oh God! Why didn’t I see it?”

You didn’t see it and neither did they. Dark secrets hidden in plain view. No one saw it.

Somethings are too hard to see. Instead, you feel them. Deep down inside. And they hurt.

God do they hurt like hell after all these years!

“This is crazy. You are a grown woman. Stop crying.”

So, you wash your face with dirty dishwater and carry on because

No. One. Knows. No one sees.

“It’s better this way” you quietly explain to yourself; smiling,

Drying your eyes with an old dish towel.

But you can’t explain why you are now screaming at your husband (or your children).

You can’t explain anything anymore because you’re not exactly sure

What exactly happened.

It was so long ago. You were just a little girl…

Yes. A long time ago something happened. It was a terrible thing and it

Shattered your world.

And here we are wondering why life seems so mean-spirited and meaningless.

“Why did this happen to me?”

It’s ok. Go ahead. Ask the questions.

Dear God,

Nothing makes any sense to me. My life is falling apart. My marriage is falling apart.

I don’t like what I have become.

Angry. Bitter. Resentful. And worst of all—I behave just like her.

How do I stop? How do I stop hurting…


And others.

It’s 2am and you are wide awake apparently talking to yourself again.

Are you listening this time?

Look at the man lying next to you who made a vow to you for better or for worse.

Listen to the sound of his breathing. Peaceful. Rhythmic. Soothing.

How much more worse can he take?

And you? How much more worse are you willing to suffer?

Close your eyes. Rest awhile.

It’s still dark, and a new day yet dawns.


Author: NZain


27 thoughts on “Shattered Chapter 1: Acceptance”

      1. I am just now reading some of my writings from the last couple of months…goodness I need to edit edit and edit some more! Ha!

        From what I can tell, it seems that a lot of people are going through much the same process—healing their past traumas. It takes a lot of courage to want to face the old dragons. But then what a relief. I hope that’s what this blog does for others—encourages.

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      2. As always, Steve, grateful to you and everyone else here on WP who has shown so much compassion, support and just plain kindness. Bloggers are awesome! We are all in this world together and like Renee says “we will get there together”💓

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      3. Yes indeed, there needs to be more compassion and kindness among people and we need to support one another along this journey of life. Have a wonderful Wednesday Nina!😃😺🌞☕

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      1. Optimism is always welcome. 🙏🏻. Yes, one way or another—we will make it together. It’s not a race but a journey and we are in good company. What a happy visual that gives me.🥰


    1. Hi Angie I’m glad you said that, thank you! Yes, these words could be yours or anyone who has experienced suffering. We are in this world together and that is a beautiful blessing. And the best part about suffering? Healing. I am there with you!

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