Final Fare-Well to Growingupsideways.blog😊

January 3, 2019

A very sincere thank you to everyone here on WP. There is much I could say, but I will keep it simply–thank you.

This is the final post for growingupsideways.blog. Time to grow up. If not now, when? I will continue to write and explore–maybe even publish a book one day. NZain, poetess. Has a nice ring to it!

Until then, I look forward to reading more of your poems and stories and seeing your photos and art. I wish you all the best of success on your blogs!

My first post began with a Bible verse from the book of Isaiah “…I form the light and create the darkness…”

And so, my final post also begins…

That they may know from the rising of the sun, and from the west, that there is none beside me. I am the Lord, there is none else. I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the Lord do all these things.”Isaiah 45: 6, 7

Great Spirit, You who are called by so many names and worshipped in so many ways, the One Living God; thank You for this life of mysterious wonders. Always am I reminded of Your presence everywhere, “I form the light and create darkness”.

Sometimes, it is difficult for me to believe You create evil. It hurts.

But then something miraculous happens when I dive deeply into Your infinite ocean of existence—my strength is revived.

Disquieted, I struggle against all fear and worry; ripped apart torn to shreds—until there is nothing left of me to fight. Dis-membered. Dis-illusioned.

You are ALL and I am a part, but never apart from You.

The light the dark, good, evil, suffering, healing…a mysteriously unfathomable unexplainable wondrously horrific and awesome existence. I surrender to You. There is nothing else and I have nothing to fear. Not even death.

You are ALL I see, taste, touch; I hear You and nothing else. Your fragrance is ever present.

And yet, sometimes, it hurts.

When attacks come from all directions and I am standing alone (or so I think) to defend myself…wait—what is it I am defending? Who are my enemies? You are All there is. And then, something miraculous happens.

Once again reminded of Your presence everywhere: I surrender and my enemies vanish. Disillusioned am I. There is only You and nothing else. And yet, sometimes, it still hurts…

The human heart may be fragile; however, the ego is strong defending its very existence against Your Love. A mystery.

And so, once again, I dive…

WLaG,

Nina Zain

Hanalei Bay at sunset. Photo by me.