In My Pocket a Silken Thread

April 30, 2021

Through eyes of lust is the world viewed

Selfish intentions to get what is needed to survive

Thinking only of one’s own interests and

How can I make this pain go away?

This deep suffering,

“You hurt me!”

How can I forgive you?

How can I see in you the very same Self in me

Wanting to love and be loved

Wanting to know

Life is meaningful and worth the effort to be alive?

For all of its mishaps and blunders

Stumbles and falls…

There is a secret deep within the soul if we are willing to put aside injuries and blame;

Willing to see what is already there

What has always been there

Waiting to be seen with loving eyes wide open

Washed clean in a flood of tears

That threatens to destroy

This bridge between

You and me...

In my pocket I hold onto

A silken thread

As durable as hope and as

Beautiful as life itself.


This Love Am I Becoming…

April 24, 2021

This love am I


Out of shadows a

Hidden gem

Behind an apparition—

Only an image of love.

True love


Pure awareness of

The unchanging


Ever present Self

Within the heart of every being.

Stain of my sorrow

Washed clean

In a flood

Under a bridge

Standing tall…

Am I becoming

This love.

Ever to behold

Knowledge of

One within

All without

Fear without doubt.

There can be no doubt when

Faith, rising from its own experience,

Lifts the soul to a place

Where no worry can follow;

Leaving behind no trace of sorrow

Only the question

Where did she go?

She is no longer hiding;

She is becoming

This love.


This Emerging Love…

April 22, 2021

This love beyond passing feelings of sweet ecstasy and momentary bliss—

Which I could not endure—for the sake of a deeper love to emerge and sustain me

Through cold nights of lonely misunderstandings. This love was unknown to me

Until feelings of passing desire subsided for the sake of a deeper love.

Within me grows a love powerful and courageous knowing both success and failure;

Undaunted by life’s passing feelings of happiness and sorrow.

This emerging love for You residing in the heart of every being* moves my soul ever closer to knowing You as the Self residing in my very own heart.

*inspired by my life with you and the Bhagavad Gita.

–NZain 🙂

Loving You Goodbye…

April 1, 2021

Loving You Goodbye

Loving you with no expectations of

Rewards in the future or

Love returned; just love for the sake of love

Because loving you this way feels right—

I am changed. Forever.

And this feels good…

No longer compelled by fear of losing you; the gift of love is simply that. A gift.

And I give freely to you, my love, for the many years we traveled together through hardships and misunderstandings, joyous discoveries and precious moments sipping coffee together in the early morning hours. Precious time. Not lost. Not forsaken.

You and I

Two beasts

Searching for beauty

Searching for true love

To save us from ourselves; we wanted

To be loved…and

Only now, are we truly learning how to love.

I am not ashamed to say,

“I am not finished loving you, my friend.”

This love I have for you goes deeper than the darkest hell we survived when we made each other look deep within our own selves to find our true selves amongst the debris of broken vows and angry words so carelessly tossed about like rotten old garbage. We were there all along…just waiting to be rediscovered in the hush of morning twilight when the sun, just about to rise, gives new hope to all the world. We were there.

This journey we chose from the beginning to walk together is coming to an end. Soon, we will choose to say goodbye. But until that final day, I make you this new vow, my husband: to cherish us completely and nourish all that is within our souls.

With love,


Because of You, am I Set Free…

March 29, 2021

Because of you, am I set free…

How many lifetimes together we

Walked this dark path

Revealing to no other but

Our selves

Our darkest selves—

God only knows.

And when trapped in the prison of ignorance unable

To love, as lovers do for fear—now

In the light of this truth—I love you freely, my friend…

As I never could love you before. I cherish you completely

For now do I understand the meaning of true love in the

Wholeness of suffering and joy.

In order to finally find you;

I first had to lose you.

I am honored to know you

All your best; all your worst.

For who can really love one so intimately or so intensely

Without also loving the harsh reality that is this shared human condition?

And this harsh reality we survived for the benefit of all—

I am not ashamed to show the world healing is possible.

Love so confounding we think we know it when we feel it

And then it transforms into something we no longer recognize but instead fear.

It’s easy to fall in love and terrifying to fall out; expecting love to behave in a way that makes sense. But love is irrational and every poet knows this…

In humble gratitude,