November 21, 2021
There is in me a piece
Unloved. For this piece is
Unlovable. Unruly.
Even I don’t like this piece.
And yet, there is in me this piece.
(Unlovable and unloved. Unruly.)
A piece of my whole being wants to
Take something for fear of not having it and
Doesn’t understand how
By acting this way
Something is lost.
Something is always lost and then,
Must be be recovered.
Again and again–
Until this piece learns to be a lover; learns
To be a integral part of the whole.
Learns to play by rules meant not to punish, but to provide.
Learns to be lovable and loved…and so much more than just a piece.
Already this piece is listening and recognizes the pain caused to the whole of my being and that’s enough for now. It is enough now, just to sit with and embrace this piece, lonely and frightened, with the whole of my being, in love, allowing this piece to feel love move through the whole of me…kissing away tears and smoothing back judgements. It is enough for now.
With love and gratitude,
NZain 💚
Growing Up... 
Awesomely profound, ma! ❤️🙏🏼
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Thank you, ma. 💚🙏🏻
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Beautiful! I too have felt things similarly. It’s about the whole, we all have parts of our being that often is rebellious and are often tempted to be radically different than the expectation of self and others. Very profound and naked honesty! Keep writing and I will keep reading!
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“…naked honesty.” Ooh I like it, Charlotte! Yes, I think this feeling of having rebellious parts of our being is something most of us can relate to. Part of the human experience to learn to love. 😊💚 love grows over time.
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🦋💚🦋🌷
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💚🦋💚🌷
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Amazing picture. So loveable feeling in all lines written. Fantastic & heart touching , important for Loving the unlovable.✍️💓
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Glad this touches your heart. 🥰💚
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Thanks lot🌷💘
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We have to be able to love all of ourselves – even the unlovely parts – if we are ever to truly feel at peace, and fully comfortable with, ourselves. But it’s a journey ….
Have you read of Richard Schwartz’s work on internal family systems theory? He talks about how even shocking parts of us are actually beautiful and worthy of our affirmation – because their goal was to protect us, or to enable us to cope from something traumatic.
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Thank you so much for the recommendation—I just watched a YouTube interview. Wow. He did a quick 7 minute “meditation” exercise. So simple and profound.
Yes, this is a journey…we are explorers unraveling great mysteries and making new discoveries. How awesome is that? Ok I have to go search out more Dr. Schwartz! 😊✨💚
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Cool. I’m glad you found the meditation exercise useful. He’s worth listening to! All the best ❤️
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Nina, when you witness these thoughts with others, be mindful that God looks at you through the eyes of Jesus. Every part of us is loveable in His eyes. God’s peace!
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Exactly. Thank you always for your wise understanding, Mr. B. 🙏🏻
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