Shattered Chapter 3: Listen to Your Dreams Unfolding

March 9, 2020

For powerful men and women everywhere.

I dream

I am

In the presence of a powerful man.

Intelligent. Interesting. Patient. Kind.

I am soaring!

Then, for some reason there I am folding his laundry when he says with a kind smile, “you don’t need to be my maid”.

I think to myself, “is this the best I have to offer such a powerful man?”

He shows me a fantastic invention he created (a wonderful machine); and asks me to take the control into my hands.

(Oh to try and describe the thing! Words fail me now…it was after all only a dream)

I am clumsy on my own, so he simply, patiently

And rather gently holding the control with me—barely touching my hand—begins guiding me to feel…

“Surrender to take-charge.” he says

Not quite touching my ear with his own breath.

I am terrified and find it difficult to trust myself. I will fail—break the thing.

I feel I will crumble—be exposed for my incompetence and vulnerability—and he will judge me—abandon me, or worse—criticize me.

It is too much for my nervous system. I am both simultaneously scared and excited as I begin to feel myself relax and let go while an immense flood of energy unfolding through my body threatens to annihilate me.

I am exhilarated and exhausted.

I have to escape the reality of this dream.

He patiently smiles. He understands. I wake myself…

What kind of woman am I? What do I have to offer a powerful man?

Am I a scared little girl who never grew up–unconscious; waiting for love’s true kiss to wake me?

How sad to wait on someone else who is also scared and unconscious and waiting…waiting.

I am

Intelligent. Interesting. Patient. Kind.

I won’t give up on my dream. I will gently train my nervous system to control this immense flow of energy unfolding throughout my body which threatens to annihilate me.

And I will grow stronger and more powerful.

I will surrender and take charge.

“Wooohooooo!”

I listen to the owl outside my window and the sound of my breath in harmony with the one lying next to me: Intelligent. Interesting. Patient. Kind.

I look at the clock. 3:14 am.

My heart fills with joy. I could stay in this unfolding moment for all eternity.

And for now,

I will.

–NZain

Author: NZain

Finding my way forward...

15 thoughts on “Shattered Chapter 3: Listen to Your Dreams Unfolding”

    1. Wonderful! And there is sandalwood and spices, roses and jasmine, every color sari and so many delicious foods unfolding…some of my happiest moments are memories from India. I am so glad to share this ever unfolding moment with you. 🙏🏻

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      1. So many blooming flower-gals, and guys, in the wide world… and here on wp, so many of us, blooming through words. My URL was a bit of a random, when I picked it. Could belong to anyone here. :)) Thanks for your persistent kindness, Nina ❤️😊

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