Professionally speaking 👩🏻‍💻

August 8, 2019

Professionally speaking,

Between you and I,

Contact

Is inappropriate when:

I ask you, “Stop.”

And you refuse.

I tell you, “Stop.”

And you refuse.

I have no choice but to make you stop.

What part of this do you not understand?

So, you rubbed me the wrong way; it’s ok.

Learn from it, my friend.

Yes, it’s all fairytales and tragedies—and

Divine Comedies.

The horror of this world is too great to speak of here…

Let the sirens sing their songs—what do you care?

“Look your own nose!” The Old Man would say.

Guruji—as he was known to most.

For whom does the bird sing?

If she sings only for herself we will come to know…in time…

But see,

I hope it’s not too late:

I believe God brought us all together here;

For better or for worse remains to be seen.

But one of us has fallen—and is nowhere to be heard…

So sing little angel sing don’t you cry:

Unplugged from the grid

Her her own avarice brought her down

Friend turned into enemy

Now everyone’s a clown!

Hope hath a friend in laughter…

Be well, my friend.

Thank you for being a kind friend in my time of need. I appreciate you letting me speak my mind. Always, without judgement. Without hate.

Now, I don’t know what goes on behind closed doors; but professionally speaking, pretending or not I don’t know—nor do I particularly care—I also have nothing to hide except my own bad temper…so I try to mostly keep to myself, you know what I mean? Work on my own healing. Don’t go chasing after every pretty girl I see on the internet! Get to really know myself inside—see just what it is I have to offer her. “Ти Розуміеш?”

“Now you’ve made trouble for yourself” I can hear my grandma saying—but in Ukrainian…

I tried to give her warning—it was a warning to myself.

Help her; prayer for her. Now. Today. Don’t delay—

Or just let her die

Quietly

On a beach… let her die the foul thing that she is…

Prayer for her soul

We each must follow our own path

But we can pray for one another

Along the way…

Sweet little sister

Taken in by surprise

What was your plan

No one can surmise

Now you are down on your face

Inside feels the disgrace;

What will you do?

What will you do?

Who will you turn to

In the hour when

You are

All

Alone

And death smites you

On the cheek, dear

And no one hears your cries

Will you rise up

Come full circle?

Or will you keep falling down

On your face

In the dirt

I fear

For a whole ‘nother round…

So it’s the story over and over

Again and again

Of how the Harlot and the Lover

Conceived a world to fade

Always and forever

Never ending

Always

Being remade…

Our death is but—our beginning.

Don’t hasten

Don’t tarry…

Live your life!

Love

First your

Self;

Then love

Everyone else

As you would—

Yourself.

Then

When judgment day comes–

We will know…

With love and gratitude your friend,

©️Nina Zain 💟

growingupsideways.blog

Author: NZain

@ukiezhinka

52 thoughts on “Professionally speaking 👩🏻‍💻”

  1. It was such a great post, Nina! Loved all the poems and honestly, they have me shivers around my spine. It was such a creative way you created the post… I hope your thumb is okay now 🙂 And did you have your adventures?
    Lots of love and warm regards!

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    1. Thank you! Shivers are a great response.
      My thumb is healing—actually watching it transform is quite awesome!
      And yes—many wonderful adventures. More to come….
      How are you getting through your exams? 😊

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      1. It’s amazing how reading can touch our hearts so well. I especially liked the line “I tell you to stop” It seems just the words I would like to say to my bullies.
        It’s great that you are healing and I’d love to hear about your adventures!
        My exams going pretty smooth. Till now I’ve got full marks in all of the results shown… Yay! I am so happy 🙂 ❤

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      2. Great! Keep up the good work! What do you intend to study in college?
        Stop is so simple yet such a powerful word. Just stop.
        Bullies are just there for us to exercise and experience our own strengths and awesomeness. 😊

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      3. I would study Literature in College. 🙂 But I am 14 years now so a bit faraway from college.
        And yes, I have learnt to ignore my bullies and decided to show them I am better than any of their scorns 🙂
        Thank you so much for asking!

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      4. Excellent! 14 is a wonderful age—and trust me—the next four years will go by in a flash! What you read today (even though it seems far away) will prepare you for college literature. Looking back—there are so many great books I wish I read when I was younger! I’m making up for it now.
        Bullies are funny, no? It’s so obvious that their scorns come from their own weaknesses, insecurities or even worse—abuse. It’s just another way to hide their own hurts. And then some people are just plain mean. But it’s ok. Glad you know yourself!😊

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      5. Thank you so much for your words!
        Well, over time, I have started to feel for my bullies too. They are humans and perhaps a little bit of goodness can change them. Last month, two of my bullies apologised to me and now we are back to normal I guess.
        You are really a good person to have some compassion! Our society needs more people like you, really.
        I’m sorry if I bring back any sour memories, but did you have any childhood bullies?

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      6. Oh my goodness—did I ever! I could write a book! No need to be sorry. Is what it is. Makes me wonder—do they still remember? Nah…probably not.
        That is very kind of you to say—yes society does need compassion. And forgiveness and also indifference which is something I’ve learned over the years. Very empowering.

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      11. Also, I really thank you for inspiration about college days. What did you study in college? And would you please tell me some the books you wanted to read as a younger girl?
        Thank you again 🙂 ❤

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      12. I studied many subjects—and I’ve not yet finished my studies. Writing, psychology, political science, herbal medicine…I got married, put college on hold—and we traveled and lived in India for a different kind of study. There are some things I would do differently—but we learn and grow. Do take your studies seriously when you can!
        Some books I wish I had read: I’m now reading https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/12505.The_Idiot which is a delightful read set in Russia 1800’s.

        I just finished reading Joseph Campbell “Hero with a thousand faces” which is probably more college level—wish I had read as a younger girl https://creativeenglishteacher.com/pages/teaching-joseph-campbells-the-heros-journey
        “The Hero’s Journey”
        I’ll think of more….

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      13. Oh thank you so much!
        I think there is no limit to knowledge and we can study anytime and everytime.
        If you don’t mind me asking, are you going to university now?
        And I really try to concentrate at study in school. I listen to every word my teachers say, note them down and try to complete my homeworks in off-periods. I have quite became a teacher’s pet now 😀
        And I really love reading about Russian Revolution. My favourite childhood read was “Grasshopper: The Little Soldier”
        Do you live in Ukraine?
        Thank you so much again!

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      14. Wonderful! This is the time to listen and concentrate—nothing wrong with being teacher’s pet!
        I don’t live in Ukraine—America. And no—not in university now. I’ve been looking at an online program in business and writing. Perhaps soon…

        Oh how could I forget! George Macdonald—The Princess and Curdie, Lilith…
        Excellent tales!
        https://books.google.com/books/about/The_Princess_and_Curdie.html?id=xo0XAAAAIAAJ

        Tell me more about your interest in the Russian revolution.

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      15. Oh thank you so much for telling me about another book!
        May you find the online programme soon!
        Well, I wanted to ask you, why did your grandmother speak Ukrainian then?
        I’ve loving Russian Revolution since it was there in my history book 🙂
        Do you like History?

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      16. I love history. My family left Ukraine—because of the revolution. They were forced off their farms by the communists. It was a difficult time for everyone. My grandmother used to tell me stories—always with tears in her eyes, but no one really wanted to talk about it. Too painful. Many people lost their homes, lives—everything. So, I am the daughter of Ukrainian immigrants born and growing up in America.
        I wrote a poem called “Song for my Unborn Child” a prayer for reconciliation with our bloody past. Perhaps I’ll repost it…

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      17. Oh, that is a sad news. I am so sorry if I had stifled up painful memories. I had a Ukrainian friend who said he hated “nationalism” a lot.
        It’s really sad what heights man can go in names of “peace”. In many a history class I was close to tears reading about the painful pasts. But to imagine… I met someone who really faced something like it.
        I will love to read your poem!

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      18. Oh goodness. Hate. Nationalism. So much confusion—and outright lies. So many shattered lives. So much misunderstanding.
        No need to be sorry—at all. I’m glad you ask. Ask me anything. I’m glad to talk about it.😊

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      19. You are so good, Nina. ❤
        There was certainly much chaos then…
        If you don't mind and if it doesn't hurt, can I ask you about the Ukrainian nationalism someday?
        And what is your favourite type of history? Ancient? Medieval? Modern?

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      20. You may ask me anything anytime. No worries. I will try to answer you the best of my understanding—which is always subject to change mind you. It is time to speak about it now. This is the only way we will heal.

        My favorite type of history is all history! Every culture and people’s history fascinates me. Civilization’s long march towards humanity. We are still marching today—And seems we still have a long way to go.

        Tell me, what name are you inclined towards today? Or are you happy to be called Dragon Warrior? And do you fight dragons? Or protect them?

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  2. This was both beautiful, powerful and deep Nina! You have a wonderful way to use words to amazing expression of thoughts. It truly is great, thanks for sharing it. Glad that your thumb is doing so much better now. I imagine you have some nice adventures to write about too. Hope you have a wonderful day!😁😸🌞🌳

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    1. Thank you, Steve for all your inspiration. See? Never a bother. Ever. I hope our struggles can help one another to see—we aren’t alone. And sometimes we actually need one another! But in the end we are all going to the same place. Of course, how we go either kicking and screaming or quietly enthusiastically is entirely up to us!
      My big fat ugly thumb is incredible. Trying to be gentle and yet firm with its healing. No mollycoddling! 👍🍦ok maybe just a little. Ice cream heals too. 🙃

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      1. Yes, we do need one another at times for sure and everything will be okay, even if it takes time to heal. Sometimes that healing is slow, but it comes. I am sometimes impatient with things, wanting things done quickly, but it doesn’t always happen that way. But it’s coming I’m sure. Thanks Nina, have a great evening!😄😸🌳🌼

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      5. Haha! It could be so easy to just flip the switch—and reboot the planet into the next golden age…but then we’d miss out on the final act. And methinks it’s going to be a good show!

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      6. Comedy is my favorite part, and it’s especially cool when it parodies the horrors, dramas…thrills that keep us on the edge of our seats. Oh…and I love the romance, too. I’m a Jane Austin fan (shhh…it’s a little secret…and thank God for ever last audio books).

        Love to you m’dear…m’thinks you is kin. Love you!

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      7. 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰. Yes! Without comedy we are doomed! We must be able to see the humor in the horror—I know it’s sounds so callous…and I don’t mean to be. Believe me—my heart is all broken up and stitched back together. It’s just that we make more trouble for ourselves when we could be making…magic. And I don’t mean illusions and deception. I mean honest to goodness awe-inspiring creativity! Fresh baked bread with butter and honey! And coffee with cream. This is magic. I too am a bit of a romantic. Your secret is safe with me.
        Love received and given with a great big smile and a warm hug.
        PS. I think making an audio book—while being hard work—would be super cool! Like good old fashioned radio programming.
        Wishing you and your abiding love a wonderful weekend. 💟

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      2. 🥰 wordsmith is nice. I like that. It feels like I just write down what I hear. You know? And I hear what I feel. Well, from one wordsmith to another! I wish you a wonderful weekend as well! 💟

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  9. Thank you for trusting us with your journey, Nina. You are such a beautiful, brave woman. With a lot of HEART.❤️ I can see that you are strong, and yet gentle at the same time. You are so inspirational. YOU PREVAIL!!! 🌟✨💫🌟✨💫🌟✨💫🌟✨💫

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    1. Gosh I hadn’t thought about it like that—“trusting…my journey”. You are right. We are trusting one another here. Super cool. Thanks WordPress for making this possible! I am touched and humbled by your kind and sincere words. 🙏🏻

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