July 8, 2019
We sucked the juice out of life. Didn’t we. Greedily.
Until finally
choking on our own spit
the day arrived when emptiness,
an unintended visitor, moved into our home.
Now, this house is crowded. Too crowded.
I continue to throw pieces of myself away
In search of the thing I lost so long ago.
And suddenly, it’s cold.
I need warmth. No. I require warmth. And kindness…
Is there anything more heartbreaking—wanting love, and yet refusing to let love in?
Chasing after love, and then discarding love?
The heart guarded
Chained to its past
Denies itself true intimacy for fear–
Losing what it already lost
Preferring instead the company of beggars.
I am no beggar.
Always, in love and gratitude for ALL of this existence even when I’m broken down. There is healing. And hope.
Nina 🙂
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Powerful poem Nina! You said it so perfectly, and there is that word fear again, showing up a lot today. Have a great day!!😃😺
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💪💪💪💪. 😊🙏🏻💞
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Exactly. I think.😁😸👍
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There are new parts of you not yet awakened. Hold on tight and you’ll see.
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Violet—you are an awesome woman. I’m holding…
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Too true, all of this Nina ❤️❤️❤️
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Thank you, Lorraine 💞
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You’re welcome my friend 💕💕💕
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I’m smiling right now—full of gratitude for all my dear friends 🙂 😊😊😊
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Such a lovely picture that gives me Nina . Smiles
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Your words encourage and inspire me, Lorraine. 🙏🏻
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Your words encourage and inspire me, Lorraine. 🙏🏻
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Oh my gosh. Nina. That opening! I’ve been mulling that image around in my head all day and I finally got the chance to say that I LOVE IT!
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Nathan, you can always put a smile on my face. So grateful to know you, dear friend. 🙏🏻
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Absolutely! Always hope. Well understood!
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Thank you for understanding 🙂
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Wow! That’s a really deep and beautiful poem Nina!❤
Love, gratitude and hope is all we need in this life😊
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Yes. Very true—really, we don’t need much. Thank you for the kind words. 🙂
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My pleasure dear! 😊
Love and light to you💖
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Nina, this emptiness, so big that it fills up the room….. what an image. An image that fills up my heart too. You are expressing your feelings in this journey so powerfully and so beautifully. Another hug from me to you today sweet friend 💛💕
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To say just how grateful I am for your kind and supportive words seems inadequate. 🙏🏻🤗🙏🏻. Thank you, sweet friend for sharing this journey with me. I feel so blessed—so to share the blessings with you is even more wonderful. 💞💞💞
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💕💕💕
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So beautifully and honestly said
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Thank you🙏🏻. I feel the same about your beautiful writings.
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thank you:)
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Amen Amen. I think risking and when your heart is healing is hard to trust and do. But when you do it’s such a beautiful opening to love I’ve found. I love this one 🙏🏼🦋💜
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Yes, it is a beautiful opening to love—well said thank you for that. 🙏🏻
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❤
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This is inspiring Nina ❤ mesmerising and deserves to be read by so many others…wish you eternal happiness, my friend 😊
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Well this just put a huge smile on my face! Thank you, Nour. You think others would benefit from this?
What a lovely wish, eh? Eternal happiness. 🙏🏻 I wish the same for you, my friend.
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Well, I strongly hope so! You wouldn’t mind me re-blogging it, would you? And thank you 😊
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Oh gosh no I don’t mind! I sincerely appreciate your support. Thank you. 🙏🏻
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Reblogged this on Leave Behind a Trace and commented:
Sadness can come from nowhere. As does Joy. We’re choosing which to generate and focus on.
Behold this supercalifragilisticexpialidocious piece. And yes, that’s a word.
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Awesome! Thank you for the support, Nour. I totally agree with you—we choose. Great word! Glad you liked it this. 🙏🏻
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I can relate with this in mind for future. Sometimes, we float across the water sighing, and other times we breathe but always sadness ripples us up.
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Yep. Well said. But then just as soon as the ripples come, they subside…then joy comes.
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